wedding thoughts

so wow, only about 2 months until the wedding...and i do believe my "surprise" bridal shower is coming up real soon. i bought like three dresses and i still can't decide which one i want to wear for the shower...funny how all this wedding stuff has been running parallel to what feels like a lot of instances of separation. Weddings - marriage for that matter is about the uniting of people, right? So its so weird how I feel like I've been forced to deal with having to separate from things that have been a part of my life for so long. They don't really mention that in those wedding planning magazines and books. Like planning a separation from my parents. Talk about heavy emotional shit! Then, though highly unplanned, I was away from my church youth choir for nearly a month. And it felt like a necessary separation coz I've been feeling like there was too much dependence (likely on a subconscious level of course) on my presence there that there wasn't a need or a motivation to grow. And now my current early intervention case. It was my first case as a therapist and I started with this kid not saying a word, and barely imitated sounds. Now he tells me "no touch" when I want him to slow down when flipping pages of a book. He sings songs, reads stories with me and says when he wants a break or wants to play. Man, separation is PAINFUL. I had to cut down on my hours with this kid and eventually phase out til the end of the month...All these necessary separations, while painful, also are clearly necessary...which i guess makes it all that much harder...